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Syringe

Sooo this is some shitty stream of consciousness experiment type thing I did. I am not a suicidal druggie, mmk?

Bit of scene-sitting is required: When this popped into my head, it came with a vision of some dude about to take some pill out of some girls mouth, skins-stylee. That little bit of context is kind of required.

Syringe

Stop.

Think about why you're doing this.

Or maybe you're sick of waiting for a reason? Tired of waiting on some big tragedy to come along and give you an excuse to do this, something that will make it a little more forgiveable.

Then again, maybe you need an escape. You need some silence from the confusion, from the screaming voices all vying for your undivided attention.

But then, maybe you just want to go to a peaceful place full of joy, a place full of light.

A place that deep down you know you might never come back from.

Daily Blogging! Part Eight : Why I Hate Valentines Day

Because I'm always alone.

:(

Am Cry.

Daily Blogging! Part Seven : Review - The Cut On My Finger

Well, this is an odd cut. I could barely remember how I got it until I remember that I put a glass on the table last night and it decided to shatter in my hand. The woman who was serving our table was very nice, rushing to get me cleaned up and to stick a plaster on me. She wasn't very attractive though. She was average, 5/10, but the cut on my finger is epic.

It looks like a massive chunk has been removed and a small flap of skin has covered up the vile gash. I don't think that's actually the case though, as the "flap" is quite thick and actually appears to be raised from the finger. I hope there's not a piece of glass stuck underneath there.

In terms of pain, the cut is a bit of a letdown. Last night I was fairly sure I'd be in agony this morning, and while that's true of my head, I can't even feel the cut. It's like it's not even there, to be honest. Very disappointing.

It healed amazingly fast. It looks like a week old wound rather than a... 9 hour old wound. I somehow lost the plaster, otherwise I'd see if it had bled much, but if it did then it's stopped now.

It's gonna leave a nice scar :D

Overall, the cut is visually pretty good, but it's not painful or anything which is pretty lame. The scar it's going to leave is going to be epic though.

6/10

Things I learned last night:
I'm not gay, apparently. One day I'll make up my mind.
I must look good in a suit.
People worry about me, bizarrely. Only the people at work though. I wish other people worried about me too.

Daily Blogging! Part Six : Why I Love And Hate Skins

Love:

It's funny. That whole scene in the gym in the most recent episode was one of the funniest things I've seen in recent times.

It deals with the real shit. It covers everything from racism, drug addiction, teen pregnancy, homophobia, death (it does this the best; see Sid's dad and Chris :(), and all the other shit people deal with.

The characters.
There's the old crew: The weird and eccentric Cassie. Chris who is the typical learn-to-love-him character who starts out a bit shit but eventually becomes one of the most likeable characters. Jal... Ok, Jal's pretty boring, but she still manages to be quite likeable. Maxxie, the loveable gay boy. Anwar, I think we all had a friend like Anwar. Michelle; to be honest I just like her clothes, they're all colourful and shit. Sid, who all of us geeky virgins could relate to. And then there's Tony who is just... well, Tony.

The new batch seem promising: Effy is already a legend with her odd ways, ability to read people, and being a manipulative bitch. Her best friend Pandora is like a more naive version of Cassie, but on less weed and on more ecstacy. Cook, who looks set to be this generation's Chris. Freddie who is just insta-cool as soon as he shows up, skating through traffic. JJ reminds me a bit too much of Sid, but a bit more retarded. Again, he's by far the easiest to relate to. Naomi is intriguing, is she a lesbian? And what really went down between her and the twins? Katie and Emily would probably suck individually, but there's an interesting dynamic between the two of them. And their pervy brother who watches them shower is made of win. Mackenzie Crook's got a role coming up soon too, and Ardal O'Hanlon is made of awesomeness.

The music's awesome. I had both the theme tune and Standing In The Way Of Control as my message alert and ringtone for about a year. Considering they've had both Crystal Castles and MGMT in the show, it's probably got one of the best soundtracks on TV. Was glad to hear some Klaxons this week, too.

Hate:

Ok, there's really only one part I hate, and that is that I am intensely jealous. I want to be sat outside some dodgy burger van selling lager smoking a spliff. I want to get dragged into a game of doing everything on the school's DO NOT DO THIS list. I wanted to be there when Cook dropped his trousers to show off his tattoo. I'd even settle for the sad moments, as at least there's something happening to feel something about. That may just be me though.

Looking forward to watching the rest of the new series, anyway.

Daily Blogging! Part Five : Sony Does It Again

Sony executives are idiots. Here's a couple of recent quote from Kaz Hirai:

This is not meant in terms of numbers, or who's got the biggest install base, or who's selling most in any particular week or month, but I'd like to think that we continue official leadership in this industry.

Such an idiot. This does NOT MAKE SENSE. Unless you are retarded, which he clearly is.

We don't provide the 'easy to program for' console that [developers] want, because 'easy to program for' means that anybody will be able to take advantage of pretty much what the hardware can do, so then the question is what do you do for the rest of the nine-and-a-half years?

Holy shit. What a spacker.